Loneliness After Dusk

Each of us has been alone. We have all at one time or another been starved for companionship. Each of us had endured days, weeks , months, perhaps even years without finding meaningful relationship that could relieve us from the loneliness that was slowly eating away our inside out. We have to admit to ourselves that at some point in our lives that we were lonely and afraid.

I remember my long walks to and from school. I remember how my heart cried out for a friend with whom I could share my innermost thoughts and feelings. I remember the countless times since my childhood when I feel the pangs of loneliness. However, I am not sad about all that. In many ways, loneliness is a blessing. It can have a sobering effect on man. Loneliness has a way of causing man to realize things that would otherwise go unnoticed in his life.

A woman who has experienced deep loneliness is in deep position to enjoy that tremendous feeling of exhilaration that comes about with love. She is more sensitive and appreciative of the blessings that friendship brings. When a person has been up the whole night, she becomes very much aware of the slightest trace of light that signifies the dawning of a new day. When a woman has gone without love and deep friendship for some time, it takes just a little bit of tender loving care to cause her to feel deeply what others might take for granted.

Lonely people are easy targets for insecure persons who are alert enough to understand how little love and affection can have such a tremendous impact on the one who feels that she is living in a world without love.

A woman who has experienced crippling loneliness fully realize the beauty of love and the value of friendship. She treasures every tender moment that her faithful friend offers her because she is reminded of the total isolation and the tremendous suffering that almost destroyed her emotionality.

The lonely woman tends to review her life. She remembers the bitterness of the past and how it need not have been. She recalls those moments of intense loving and deep sharing she wishes that they could have been more numerous and longer- lasting. She becomes aware of the incidents of petty dishonesty in her life and suddenly realizes how silly and useless they were. She remembers the hurt she had caused other people and feels she could very much like to make up for her cruelty by whispering a few loving words to the offended person.

The lonely and isolated woman searches for answers to life. She looks for a better life. She is willing to sacrifice many things, even herself, in order to attain some sort of union with somebody in order to drive away from her life the feeling of loneliness that is slowly driving her to the edge of madness.

Perhaps for the first time in her life, she becomes honest in facing conflicts and problems. She longs to validate her values and priorities in order to reassure herself that she has done right and is in the correct path.